I Still Have Hard Days 5.9.26

5.9.26 - I Still Have Hard Days

I wish I could say that every day in recovery, and after, will be a good one. But, unfortunately that's just not the truth.

The last couple days, have just been hard. I wish I could really determine why, but I don't know.

And that is okay.

It's okay to have tough days, it's ok to not be in the best headspace every single day.

But it's not ok to stay there.

This feeling is temporary, and this feeling will pass.

But sometimes, you have to be the one to get yourself out of there.

I used to just isolate and sit with myself and my thoughts whenever this would happen.

I would cancel plans with friends, I wouldn't hangout with my family, I just wanted to be alone.

And then I realized, that never made it better.

It never made me happier.

It never helped.

I'm not saying it's not ok to have a little alone time sometimes, that is totally fine, it's actually healthy. BUT, if it's all of the time and it's because you're struggling mentally, then it is not always the answer.

So today I'm going to force myself out of this rut.

I'm not going to sit here stuck in this feeling.

I'm going to hangout with friends. I'm going to do things that make me happy. And I'm going to focus on all of the little things that I enjoy about life. 

No matter how small, these actions add up. 

And soon there will be too many joys to even have room for the sadness or whatever feeling you were stuck in before.