Purpose - 4.15.26

Today I want to talk about purpose, feeling like you have to have one.

I cannot begin to describe the amount of stress and pressure I put on myself to have a grand purpose in life. In highschool I remember just feeling like there was always something missing, like I wasn't doing enough. Well there definitely was something missing, food. But, that was a separate issue. If you don't know me, or you can't tell, I have an extremely Type A personality. I always feel restless, need to have a goal, be in control, etc. While this played a key part of what led to my eating disorder, it also played a key part of this never ending feeling of unsatisfaction. With myself. I never felt like I was doing enough, I wasn't good enough, I wasn't enough.

One day, my therapist told me, "Maybe our purpose as humans is just to be?". While that didn't make sense to me at the time, and may not make sense to you now. I finally understand what she meant. We as humans, don't have to have some grand purpose, whether that's to be president, or to be famous, or whatever it may be. Maybe our purpose is to just live.

Live life the way you want to. Live life doing things that make you happy. Live life for you.

That being said, a part of me believes that maybe a true purpose will come find you somewhere alone the way. I know mine found me. This. Fuel Her Fully. This is my purpose.

Along with helping people in any way that I can, I truly believe I have my purpose in life. To spread awareness for an issue that is unfortunately far too common in society. To help those who feel powerless in their own skin, to help young women learn what it means to be FREE.